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i am trying to
say goodbye but
my soul is digging
in its heels,
it is piercing my
skin with its teeth
and it is
shaking me,
shaking me,
shaking me.

it will not let me
let you go this time.

i wish the photos
i keep could talk to me,
like some damned harry
potter trick, just so i
could hear you say
you love me without
your voice breaking,
without hearing the
'but...' that never
made it past your lips
but lodged itself in
my throat anyway.

i just want to
hear you say it like
you mean it.
i was full of
flowers, once.

soft blossoms and a
wild, arcing sky that
would have taken
your breath away.

but now i am
watching the
petals of my
skin swirl
down the drain
and thinking
about how
my depression
is a bodily
pesticide,
slowly stunting
all kinds of growth
until finally,

nothing tries to
grow anymore.
i'm still alive guys, i promise! just having a real tough time of it lately and took time off from most platforms to take care of myself. much love, i hope you're all well :heart:
days have
stopped being
days,
the guts
pulled out and
replaced
with empty sleep.
nights the same.

and the rest of
it leaves
a stale taste
on my sheets.
"What do you say when you’re not enough to make someone stay? What do you do when you meet the love of your life and realize it’s all about timing? How do you accept that no matter how perfect you are for each other, circumstances get in the way? How do you compete with that kind of fate?” - Katie Kazinsky -

love; concrete shoes in the ocean.

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Effie
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Australia
Three-and-twenty years old, I am a lot of things but mostly I am hopelessly at odds and ends with myself.

I am full of diseases you can't see and words I can't write but I'll never stop trying. My heart beats with a stop stop start and I wonder if that will ever matter to you.

This is the way my world ends.
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WindFragments Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday! :cake: :love:
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xclaux Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday!
Have a fabulous day.
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ei9 Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2015
Happy early birthday to you Effie and may it be absoluetly wonderful tomorrow!
God loves you each and everyday of your life!
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introverted-ghost Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2015   Writer
Happy Birthday for tomorrow, dear. :heart:
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2015   General Artist
Tag a quality deviant: You’re it! Quality doesn’t mean that you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you’re nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don’t care how much followers you have. Send this to 10 deviants who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it’s just good to let someone know that you love them! Heart
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hypermagical Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2014
Thank you for the watch! :la: I appreciate it.
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toffeesmile Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2014
oh dear, you write so wonderfully. ❤
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IrrevocableFate Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2014   Writer
Hello, beautiful.
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trembling-knees Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Hello, wonderful darling, I hope you're having a good day :heart:

(sorry this is such a late reply ugh I've been crazy busy!)
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IrrevocableFate Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2014   Writer
Hello. ♥ I hope you are having a spectacular day as well.

Don't worry, I understand that. :hug:
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